• Sep
  • 30
  • 2010

Who knew I was an Emotional Terrorist?

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Who knew that that I had so much pent up emotion laying in wait inside me? Not me… That was until this afternoon when my boss (well one of the 3 bosses) asked me if I was happy at work. My answer came in the form of a scrunched up face and tears spewing out of my eyes. How embarrassing? But now that it is all out in the open I might as well release it unto my blog and the virtual world in the hopes of getting rid of it for good.
It is difficult to balance happy family life, happy me life and happy work life and I usually tend to juggle these balls quite efficiently to the point where I am TOTALLY HAPPY. No qualms and no reservations… But things have been happening around the workplace that I don’t agree with, people have been treated in certain ways that I don’t like, and things that have been “promised” or “suggested” have not been delivered. Amongst other things I have felt that it is my moral duty to stand up against unethical treatment of my peers, and I have felt the need to rebel against decisions that I don’t agree with. But clearly I have been doing this in my head, and not in the real world because when asked a simple question like “Are you still happy here?” I retort by crying. It all eventually came out, and my boss was as kind and sympathetic as one would be when faced with a sobbing woman. Apparently I wear my heart on my sleeve and I’m not fooling anyone even when I don’t own up to the feelings I am experiencing. I was basically walking around with an “I’m unhappy” sign fixed to my forehead. Again… who knew?
The point is that I now feel much better. Although I don’t feel that the issues have yet been resolved, it is good to get it out in the open in the environment in which it belongs. And I now feel like a door has been opened through which all of these little feelings and thoughts can happily venture the next time they arise. For now, it is time to smile again and look deeper to identify these things before they hit. And to especially avoid them “hitting” in front of my boss… and to *sigh* with relief :)
  • Sep
  • 29
  • 2010

How tricky it is to take that leap…

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Tricky indeed! Taking that little (or large) leap of faith! We know how capable we are, and we trust that we are where we are supposed to be and that this journey is what we have chosen for ourselves. In saying that… if it is our pre-determined choice, then we should know that no matter what happens we will end up where we are supposed to be, and that this should be a direct correlation between what we want and what we receive…
But why then do we not trust ourselves enough? Trust in our capabilities just that smidgen more so that when we are faced with these choices we know to run full speed ahead into the wide blue yonder, carrying with us all the certainty and motivation of what it is we are trying to achieve.
I have so many irons in the fire at the moment, and they are getting hotter with every passing day. Each one is a direct result of my initiative and efforts, and each one represents an element of personal passion. Each and every choice I make is further tightening my grip on these opportunities and bringing them closer towards fruition. I know that I can recognise the full potential of these prospects if I had more time to devote to them, but that would require more hours in the day – which I don’t really have at this point. So where does the answer lie? How do I turn my millions of ideas and opportunities into “what I do for a living?” Do I throw caution to the wind and fling myself wholeheartedly into these ventures and just know that we will make it by without my consistent salary? No. Do I give up on these ideas? No. I keep on walking; keep on pushing; keep on with the keeping on during every available second of the day, and then when the time is right… The opportunity to LEAP will present itself. I think that is why it seems so tricky, and it seems like such a scary advance…. because leaping isn’t as spontaneous as it sounds, and it also has its time and place just like everything else. 
So although it may seem like I am afraid to trust and just go with it, I’m actually just listening and waiting for my moment. The time isn’t quite right yet. But when it is, I will know and that leap will be a fantastic release!
  • Sep
  • 27
  • 2010

Shameless plug to enhance site rankings

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  • Sep
  • 21
  • 2010

The simple allure of a Smile

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How simple it is to smile… and how lasting the effects.

I was driving home from work today, and singing along with good ol’ Jack… Feeling particularly enthused by the day I had just had, even traffic couldn’t get me down… Still, I didn’t want to spend any unecessary time waiting so I snuck down a back road in Buccleuch to avoid the long queue of traffic that was winding its way along Old Pretoria Road. 

No sooner had I done that and I found myself stuck behind a very slow moving Mondi truck, but instead of being typically impatient as I would normally be… I just viewed this as an opportunity to exercise my lungs a little more and turned up the volume while screeching out my favourite lyrics. I realised that this truck was in fact the Mondi Paper Recycle truck, and started thinking of all the positive benefits that recycling has on the planet. How simple it is to just “do your bit” by separating plastic from paper, tins from glass. I was secretly thanking the guys who were hanging onto the back of the truck for doing the job they do by collecting our paper for recycling… and no sooner had the thought crossed my mind and one of the guys on the back of the truck turned around, looked me straight in the eye … and smiled – the most comforting, warm and genuine smile that an old man could muster. I grinned at him and waved and sank into that glorious feeling of wonder and love for all things beautiful. He totally made my day!
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  • Sep
  • 20
  • 2010

Credit whores and the filth they spread…

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After diligently paying all my accounts and getting my credit status to 100% perfect; I find out that Edgars have been (secretly??) charging me an additional 20 odd bucks every month for some kind of “lifestyle club”… WTF!? Who told you to do that!? And now when I think my account has been closed for months I find out that it hasn’t, and I’m still getting billed for the exclusive Edgars lifestyle that I don’t even want. 
And just you try and close any of your accounts… See how easy it is (not). You’ll notice that there is no “close my account” link; there is no direct line; there is no information about it on any website… It is all a secret and trivial little puzzle that you need to decipher before you can actually wash your hands of their thievery and deception. 
It is pretty frikkin amazing how desperately hungry these conglomerates are for fresh blood…. No sooner had I paid off the loan I took out for my studio, and the financial institution who loaned me the money in the first place call me up to tell me that they have increased my revolving credit! The poor guy on the other end of the line was all too excited with his announcement that he was a bit thrown when I told him – in no uncertain terms – to take the credit and shove it where he thinks it might best fit. And that is certainly not in my grubby paws!
Don’t they get it? We pay this shit off to get it out of our hair! Not so that we can live under their power for the rest of our lives.
The part that pisses me off the most is all these semi-employed people who are offered credit facilities for accounts that they cannot afford to pay. This has the dark side written all over it! But that is another conversation for another day…. For now, all I can say is make sure you know what you are being billed for every month, and make sure you actually know what you have got yourself into. It might be all roses on the cover, but that is just Marketing. I work in Marketing…. It’s all smoke and mirrors.
  • Sep
  • 14
  • 2010

Lady Gag(a)-on-your-Meat-Dress

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How I cannot stand this woman… and I try and not hold any negative will for any person on this planet, but COME ON! Lady Gaga is officially on my asshole-list, and it is purely because she is always trying so damn hard to shock the world that she forgets to be human. 
Everyone has surely seen the infamous “Meat Dress” by now and I have little doubt that there is a person on this planet who thinks that is cool… Maybe some reprobate from a trailer park in deepest, darkest Hickville, but further than that I can’t imagine any intelligent being saying “OH WOW! I wish I’d thought of that!” Seriously… how fucked in the head to you have to be to wear a dress composed entirely of raw meat?
And WHY!? WHY? WHY would you want to subject yourself to that? The worst thing is that she is obviously so totally okay with it! Bloody, smelly, raw flesh on your body… you might as well slice up your arms and legs and wear your insides on the outside. I find her completely revolting and I would take great pleasure in setting my dogs on her and her “meat dress”…. UGH!
  • Sep
  • 13
  • 2010

So much of good stuff….

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Just when you need it, want it, feel it or don’t even consider it… all this good stuff comes creeping into your life. Little things like being reminded how amazing it is to have a man who adores you, and how incredible it is to love that person with everything you have. Having family that never change and just want to be a part of everything that you are. Having friends that are there for you NO MATTER WHAT! At every turn, when perhaps you don’t realise, they are always just one step behind… Kids who love you unconditionally, and only want to hug you and kiss you – not because they want something from you, but because they want to hug or kiss you with everything in their little beings! Opportunities that are reaching for you, not the person next to you — No, reaching for YOU! They want you! Doggies and kitties that want to sit on your lap, no matter how uncomfortable it may be; all your dreams and aspirations just aligning themselves for you – right in front of your eyes… It is all just too divine for words, and I mean that with 100% sincerity! Because even as I type this as my little release into the virtual world, there is no way in hell that my descriptions come anywhere close to how everything “feels”…. Yup back to cracking that little nut! How awesome is it to just FEEL!!!!!!???

I love my life. So much of good stuff…..

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  • Sep
  • 07
  • 2010

Tick tock tick tock

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And it is yet another week that flies by without my little semi-coherent scribbles, but it is for good reason that I have not been able to put my virtual pen to paper. So much is going on with the potential sale of the house, the imminent buying of another house, and all the wheeling and dealing that goes on in between. It has been pretty exhausting, so luckily we had a weekend away in the beautiful Limpopo bush to bring us back down to “ohm” level. 
Everything is happening so wonderfully in synch with everything else, and I know that it will continue to do so. This last weekend it was all snatched together and pulled back into perspective and we realised how simple this really is. Yes, it is tedious and we can expect to sign our names at least a hundred times before it is all through, but what a small price to pay for a home that is ours.. Our own.

I have a press release to write, so before I wonder off into the oblivion of wonderment, I shall leave you with a kiss.
*kiss*

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  • Aug
  • 30
  • 2010

On the edge of my seat!!

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Spring is the season of change, and with it comes a HUGE event in our lives. Tomorrow at 17h00 GMT+ 2 hours is the moment of truth, when we find out whether or not they will accept our offer on the house. EEK! I am constantly thinking about the possibilities for the house, and the renovations I will do and already calling it “our place” without even knowing if it is! Perhaps it is because I already know at the back of my mind, in the pit of my stomach and in the darkest cavern of my heart that this is it! And this house shall be ours! Well… we shall see.
Trying to be all non-contemplative about it and saying “oh, what will be, will be” is actually all a farce and I’m totally lying to myself if I say otherwise… I don’t want the Universe to take my house away if it is not meant to be.. I want her to turn a blind eye and just grant me my most prominent overpowering wish.
So. We shall see… Holding thumbs and all those other lucky body-parts.
  • Aug
  • 27
  • 2010

All being well…

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Tomorrow could be the day! All being well….
Tomorrow we could be putting down an offer on our house! All being well…
Tomorrow everything could just start slipping into place, perfectly! All being well…
And it will be. I just know it… ARRIVA!!!

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